In 2019, I was invited by Belladonna* to read alongside the luminous Diana Khoi Nguyen at Queens College. We were each also invited to submit writing in progress as part of the Belladonna* Chaplet series. These are very limited edition, ephemeral publications meant to reflect process. Here is an excerpt from my chaplet A Garden Beyond My Hand, notebook entries tracing loss, an imminent birth, and living in a fascist society.